Stranger Things Have Happened…

Something is amiss…

Something very strange. 

I’m *whispers* exercising!  


What is going on here?

If you read this post, you’ll know that exercising isn’t on my list of favourite things to do.  I’ve always had an excuse.

I started going to pilates two or three times a weeks for a few weeks.  And while I enjoy it, I didn’t feel like I was doing enough.  Couple that with the fact that I could never make it on time, if it at all (no thanks to ‘someone’ who has no sense of timing), and I stopped going.  

But I still wanted to do something.  I’m tired of looking like a potato.

So I dusted off a Davina DVD (I won’t be going back to P90X) I bought two years ago (and never opened) and have started doing that.  While I find her slightly annoying, I’m enjoying the workouts.

And not only that – I’ve dug out (and started wearing) my Zaggora HotPants and ordered more.  

I’ve also finally synced my iTunes and I’m listening to my slimpod again.

While I haven’t noticed anything different in the way I look – I definitely feel good 🙂

Well…  Stranger things have happened!

Did It

So, I did it.

Twenty months after going to my last exercise class (or doing any kind of exercise, for that matter) I went to pilates this morning.

I went.  I enjoyed it.  I’m still alive.  And I’m going again.


Excuses, Excuses


Yes.  That’s me.

In spite of having the best intentions, I just cannot bring myself to put on my trainers and do any exercise.

Suggest an activity.  Go on, do it.  I can guarantee you that I’ll have an excuse for why I can’t (or won’t) do it.

Pilates (which I planned to do when I got back in January)?  

No – the instructor had an accident and broke her collar bone.

Boot Camp (which many of my friends do in the morning)?

Ugh – the thought of bouncing around, getting sweaty and people watching me while I do it?  No thank you.


Same as above.


Could do.  But I don’t have a pool, so having to rely on other people is a problem.


I’d like to go with someone I know.  And the people I know that go walking go in the evening.  And I don’t want to leave Vinay home.

Fitness DVD?

Also a possibility.  But we rarely have power in the morning.  And although the TV and DVD player work on our inverter, it would be too hot.



It’s ridiculous.  I know I want/need to lose some weight, but I want it to happen magically.  I realise this is impossible.  I’m not completely deluded.  

I think I need to dig out my Thinking Slimmer CD…

How do I stop making excuses for myself?  

Suggestions, anyone?

OMG… Is That You?

My cousin is here, visiting from China.  He came over to visit and meet V the other day.  He was wandering around the house and came across our ‘picture board’ (it needs updating quite desperately)…


He spent a few minutes looking at the board and I heard him say, ‘Oh my God…  Is that you?’

The picture he was looking at was the one below (I’m on the left).


I turned to see which photo he was talking about and said, ‘Yep.’  He asked when it was taken.  So I told him, ‘Six years ago – the week of our wedding.’

‘WOW!  You were seriously slim!’

Yes.  Yes.  Yes I know I was.  I know I’m not anymore.  I know it’s highly unlikely that I’ll actually look like that again.  But funnily enough, I didn’t mind so much that he’d said that.

What I DID mind was my husband (who was also in the room) nodding his head in agreement and saying something like, ‘Yep’ (but he was actually saying a whole lot more).

That’s when I asked him, ‘Have *you* looked in the mirror lately?  Have you seen *your* belly?  And you didn’t even carry a child in it for nine months!  What’s *your* excuse?’  Poor man ran for cover.

But…  But I knew.  There’s no excuse to look the way I do when Vinay is already 18 months!  I should have lost all the weight (it can’t even be classified as baby weight anymore) already!

I see mums in playgroup – with children (some have more than one) that are younger or about the same age as Vinay – and they look FABULOUS!  

That’s it.  Time to do something about it!

I’m ‘Thinking Slimmer’ – The Next 21 Days

After posting I’m ‘Thinking Slimmer’ – The First 21 Days and being a little disappointed by the results, I feel nervous and impatient about whether the next 21 days will be better…  I lost only 1 kilo.  I know – I’ve read it several times – it takes longer for some people than others.  I guess I’m one of those!

During my pregnancy I put on a *lot* of weight.  About 20 kilos.  44 lbs.  3 stone 2 lb.  The maternity jeans I bought when I was 4 months pregnant, didn’t fit by the time I was 8 months pregnant.  And while I was pregnant, I was quite happy to be fat!  The picture below was taken at my baby shower.  I was six and a half months pregnant then.


When Vinay was born at only 2.5 kilos, Hub asked, ‘If he’s only 2.5 kilos, how did you put on so much weight?’ Or something along those lines.  I cried.  But that didn’t stop me eating whatever I wanted or drinking Coke every day (usually during the day when he was at work and wouldn’t find out).

Once Vindoo turned seven months, I decided that enough was enough.  I had to at least start trying to lose the baby weight.  When I looked in the mirror, all I saw was a fat face, fat arms, big, huge thighs and a belly with an over-hang because of the c-section.  Looking at photos was worse – because it was proof that what I see is what other people also see.  The photo below was taken when Vindoo was six and a half months old.  I know – I look like I’m having twins.  And the problem is, Vindoo’s turning ten months in three days, and I don’t think I look any different to the below photo!  I *need* to fit back into my size 12 clothes.  I *want* my face to not look like a Mr. Potato-Head.


Although my Slimpod hasn’t (so far) worked as fast as I’d like, I have noticed changes in the last 21 days.  Some of these are:

* I work out 4 times a week (usually).  And if for any reason I can’t make it to my class, I try and do something at home.  Or I just feel guilty about not doing anything.

* I haven’t had a Coke.  And… I don’t really want one *just realised this is true and jaw has hit desk*.

* I’ve cut down on the amount of sweets/chocolates/cake I normally eat.

* I feel better about myself (until I see pre-pregnancy photos)

So, here’s the next 21 days…

Day 22 – Day 27

I only did two aerobics classes during these days – but they were hard work!  I mostly had light lunches, and didn’t snack much.  On the Friday (Day 25) I had to go out for lunch.  I was very surprised at myself – I had a Soda water (when the person opposite me had a Coke I thought I would want one, but didn’t).  I had about 3 French fries (unheard of).  I didn’t have the ice cream (although I had some apple crumble).  And the cup cake… I saved it for Hub and then had 2 bites.  On Day 26 we went to a friend’s house for dinner – and the food there is always delicious… But I did not have double-helpings of anything.  And I had a little dessert – not half as much as I would normally eat!

I weighed myself on Day 27.  Since Day 1, I have lost 3.5lbs.  Surely it should be disappearing faster than this??

Day 28 – Day 34

No workout this week – Pilates teacher is on holiday and aerobics teacher was having surgery on her toe.  She’s not taking classes for two weeks.  And I’ve not felt motivated enough to do any working-out at home!  I’ve not been doing too badly, I don’t think.  Still no Coke this week.  I didn’t snack between meals until Day 32 when I had a bag of salted popcorn.  I felt guilty – but it was just so good!  This has not been a good week at all.  I have already told myself that I will start the whole process over again when I finish Day 42!

I weighed myself on Day 34.  I haven’t lost any weight.  But I guess it’s good that I’ve not put any on?

Day 35 – 42

I’ve done really well this week.  I haven’t worked out, but I’ve not had *any* chocolate (apart from two bites of cake on mil’s birthday).  And Hub and I decided to have a potato-free week.  And it wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be.  It’s actually been really easy!  I’m so proud of myself!  Sunday was a little difficult – it always is.  I had ice cream 😦  But I’m still proud of myself.

I weighed myself on Day 40.  In total, I’ve lost 4.4lbs.

Can this be correct?  How is this possible?  All I see on Twitter is stories of weight melting off people.  My eating habits have definitely changed – and I’m pleased about that, but shouldn’t I have lost more weight?  It has been 42 days!

I will continue on my quest to lose the baby weight, and I will continue with Thinking Slimmer…  

I WILL WIN!  It will just be harder than I thought…


I’m ‘Thinking Slimmer’ – The First 21 Days

As you may have already read, I’ve been battling to get rid of my baby weight.  I didn’t try so hard (ok, to be honest, I didn’t try at all) for the first six months after Vindoo was born, but for the last three months, I’ve been trying very hard!

I started doing the P90X workout at home (five days a week).  I did this for a couple of weeks, and was feeling good about myself.  However, I always found it difficult to get myself motivated enough to just get on with it and do it.  Also, it’s pretty hardcore.  And I found myself forwarding some of the exercises I didn’t want to do.  Seriously?  A five-way lunge?

Then a friend told me that she was going to pilates classes twice a week.  I’d never done it before, so decided to give it a go.  I really enjoyed it.  I LOVED that there was no cardio and although it’s difficult – I find it quite relaxing.  So then I started going to pilates twice a week and doing the P90X three times a week.  But somehow, I didn’t feel like I was doing enough. 

Next, I arranged with some friends to go to LBT (legs, bums and tums) classes twice a week.  The instructor has a lot of energy and makes us do a lot of cardio (which I do, but hate).  And although I call it LBT, she focuses on different things.  Last week we did a bit of weights.  Tomorrow she said we’d do a bit of circuit training (I think I might be too sick to go)!

Now, between starting pilates and going to LBT I discovered Thinking Slimmer completely by accident.  I was reading tweet after tweet (after tweet) by Mocha Beanie Mummy about how fabulous it was and how she had lost loads of weight.  What was this all about?  What was a Slimpod?  And how did I get one?

Slimpods are a series of unique voice recordings which help people to achieve permanent weight loss. Unlike other methods of losing weight, there are no diets, no calorie counting and no willpower required. Slimpods have been developed by Harley Street experts and use modern approaches to the science of unconscious persuasion to gently retune the mind and adjust the way slimmers think about the world, especially in relation to food, health and fitness.

(Taken from Thinking Slimmer website)

Great!  I wanted one.  NOW!  There are two purchase options.  You can either buy a CD or a download.  Buying the download was not an option – because my internet connection is crap (as stated in one of my previous posts).  So I asked my sister to order the ‘Drop two dress sizes (or more) Slimpod for me, to our London address.  The wait for someone to come and bring it for me was unbearable!

So, I finally got it and started using it immediately.  I won’t go into how it works, etc. (you can read all that on their website) – I’ll just tell you that I love Trevor Silvester’s voice!

Here’s how my first twenty-one days went!

Week 1:

I have not had a Coke at all (those of you that know me, know that this is unheard of).  I usually have pancakes for breakfast once a week – This week, I have not.  I have not snacked between meals.  I am even eating more some salad.  I had three wafer biscuits after dinner the other night – not good, right?  But I only had three!  Previously, I would have finished the whole lot!  And the most shocking thing…  Hub and I went out to dinner on Saturday night and I ordered the tiramisu for dessert.  I had about three bites and left the rest.  He thought I might have been feeling unwell (hmpgh)!  At my first weigh-in, I’ve lost 2.2lbs.  It doesn’t sound like much, does it?


Week 2:

I’ve still not had any Coke.  Or pancakes!  I’ve thought about it – but then just changed my mind…  I love how that happens!  I only worked out three times this week and feel a bit guilty, but it’s done now!  I haven’t snacked between meals (during the week when I’m home).  On Friday I went out to a friend’s house and had only one cupcake!  On Saturday we went to a 1st birthday party.  I found it impossible to resist the homemade butter cookies – and had LOADS (but at least they were small).  I had chicken salad for lunch that day – but I didn’t finish it.  I find Sundays quite difficult – because we laze in front of the TV a lot, I find that I snack more.  So I went out and bought myself some yogurts 🙂  I keep asking myself if I’m resisting (more often than not) sweet food and drinks because I know should, or if it’s because of the slimpod…  This morning two people have told me I look like I’ve lost weight (I think it was because I was wearing all black).  But I still have a potato face…  At my second weigh-in, I’ve PUT ON 0.8lbs.  I knew I shouldn’t have had those wafers last night 😥

On the Thinking Slimmer website, it does say that not everyone will see results immediately – so I’ll just stick it out!


Week 3:

So… Week 3… Still no Coke.  I feel tempted – but I just get myself a Soda water instead (not the same really, but it does the trick).  Still no pancakes.  I have worked out, but not *as* much.  I haven’t snacked between meals – apart from the yogurt I bought last week.  At dinner on Saturday night I had a nibble (just a nibble) of chocolate cake without the ice cream!  But I also had a lot of vodka…  At my third weigh-in, I am the same weight I was at the end of week one.  I must admit that I feel disappointed.  Maybe I’m eating too much bread?  Maybe I should stop eating potatoes (I’d rather die)?  I have noticed differences in my eating habits, though.  I definitely don’t eat as much junk…  Just the odd chocolate here and there.


I hope the next 21 days are better!


Yes, I put on weight. I had a baby!

I taught at an international primary school here for 6 years before I gave up my Year 2 class to become a full-time mummy. I have gone back once or twice to see my kids and so that they can see Vinay. They were quite obsessed with him when he was still inside and always asked all sorts of questions. One child asked me every day (for 7 months) if he was still in my tummy. Two weeks ago the school had their Summer Fiesta and I decided to take V for a little while in the morning. I thought it would be a great opportunity to catch up with colleagues, children and parents. I saw a boy that I used to teach when he was in year 1. He’s in year 6 now. He is also autistic (but very high functioning). I stopped him and said hello and asked him if he remembered me. He did. I looked him and said, ‘My goodness K, I can’t believe how much you have grown! You’re taller than me!’ He made eye contact (for the first time during that meeting) for a split second and replied, ‘And I can’t believe how much weight you’ve put on!’ I showed him Vinay and tried to explain – but he had lost interest and started making his way towards a games stall. It was funny. I laughed. But his brutal honesty also hurt. Obviously not his fault. He wasn’t to know that I had started exercising regularly. Or that I was only drinking Coke once (ok twice) at the weekends. And that I was generally feeling pretty good about myself. I had fit into size 14 shorts for the first time. And they weren’t tight (but now I have a feeling that BHS clothes are a bit bigger. Anyone?)!

It was disheartening. But it’s made me more determined. My will power is non-existent – but I’ll just stay positive and keep at it. 🙂